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Sometimes life has a way of raising you up to beautiful heights or knocking you down until you're flat on your face. When either one happens, it colors the following days. When it's a good experience, everything seems more vibrant and the world feels like a happier place. When it's bad, it can color every experience after that with anger, frustration, sadness, or bitterness. I'm hoping not everyone has this problem, but, for me, I can't turn my brain off. I replay events over and over in my head. I can't focus. I can't sleep. I can't move on. I become stuck on the injustice and the bad actions of myself and others. As a writer, here are two ways I've found to deal with these emotions that feel like they will chew you up and spit you back out. Journaling Six years ago, I experienced a very traumatic medical event. It rocked my world. It crushed me. It felt as though it shattered my soul, and I still believe it was/is true. I didn't feel like I had anyone to really to talk to about it, not fully, at least. My negative feelings were eating me alive, and I was a wreck. I turned toward journaling my raw feelings. First, it was in the form of blog posts, and then I turned it more private and just had a word doc on my laptop. I didn't censor myself. I didn't hold back. I just wrote what I felt. Simple as that. And you know what? It helped. It let me put some of those feelings away because I had them on paper. Once they were on paper, they didn't have to be inside me, rotting away. Character/Story Inspiration Another way to channel these emotions is to use the people/experiences as fodder or inspiration for a character or a story. For example, I worked with this one guy years ago who was one of the most pompous and degrading people I had met - at least back then. This guy would haunt my thoughts and sometimes my work-related nightmares. He was so much like another person in my life at that time that I paired them together in my head and made them into a character in one of my novels. Let me tell you... that was a lot of fun. I got to explore who they were as people (at least my interpretation of them) and put them where I felt they fit into the story. Those who have read that manuscript have told me that they could picture that character so clearly, that he was a great villain. I think it's because I wrote with real emotion when I created the character. I used real life as my inspiration, and because these actual people were so real to me, the character became so real to the reader. Plus, it helped me explore their motivations for behaving the way they did. It helped me understand them better. I didn't like them any better after, but I could understand why they acted out the way they did. And now it looks like I'm back to this point with a recent life event. Several good friends suggested that I journal about my feelings, and I think that's a good start. But I decided I needed to take it a little further and develop a story around it. I thought about it for days and weeks, and three ideas finally hit me. Thank you, muses! I haven't started writing about it yet, but even just playing with these ideas in my head, I already feel a little better. I can't wait to use a person/several people to bring a new character to life. And I think it will help me understand more about them, too. If I need anything right now, it's understanding. Plus, it's cheaper than therapy, right?
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2/1/2017 02:20:34 pm
It's one of my favorite quotes, too, Amanda! Perhaps my problem is not censoring myself enough. :)
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Susan Whitney
7/14/2019 01:04:19 pm
I LOVED this article! I mean--I truly loved it! I feel like we could be kindred spirits. Everything you said resonated with me. The quote by Lamont is perfect. I do the same thing and let thoughts play over and over and over in my head. Towards the end of my pharmacy tech career my beloved boss retired and I then I had HIM as a boss for three years causing me to retire early. He sounds just like your guy. He ruined things for about 6 techs and pharmacists at a place we loved. We all still meet once a month and guess who we talk about--HIM!! We have to get over it. We need group therapy. I would love to read more of your works.
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AuthorI'm an adjunct creative writing professor and freelance writer, but I dream of being a published novelist. This is my journey. Archives
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